I’m not entirely happy at the moment, but here I am.

On the less than completely bright side, where I was less than completely bright, I did almost everything I intended last night–took the girlfriend home, dropped off the son, visited my friend, and finished the forum posts.  I even got the opinion of my experienced drummer friend on a couple pieces of the new drum set, which he said was surprisingly good quality for a beginner’s set.  The one thing I did not do, as I rushed out the door trying to remember everything, was take copies of the books with me, so I found myself describing the Faith and Gaming and Game Ideas Unlimited books to him without examples in hand.  So I feel a bit stupid, particularly since I’m not at all certain when next I will make that trip.

I returned home close enough to time to awaken people for school that I just stayed up and finished the postings.  Thus it was well into daylight by the time I said goodnight.

I’m also a bit perturbed because I was the only one to show for tonight’s Collision rehearsal.  No one called; no one showed.  I really don’t want to be the driving force in a band of people who are not interested or committed, and I’m worried that this is starting to move that direction.  I’m not, however, certain what to do about that.  Everyone can complain that someone else is less committed to this, less ready to play, than he is; that doesn’t get us anywhere, particularly since no one is really ready to play.

I practiced a bit myself, but finally decided my time would be better spent getting this work done.

–M. J. Young