I know you said you didn't want to hear about the therapy, but screw it. It's on my mind a lot, especially lately, that I'm really starting to the results.
I am psychotic. Hence, the A1nut. My doctor tried for 6 years to find a medicine that worked. I was Teflon coated and bulletproof. Nothing worked. Either it didn't work at all, it worked for a few months and then didn't work anymore, or if it did work, the side effects were worse than the psychosis. The side effects were often painful, and in at least one case, life threatening.
It is a proven medical fact that THC, the intoxicant in Marijuana, has been linked to psychotic behavior. It causes a psychotic state. I've experienced this first-hand, hundreds of times. I'm actually having a psychotic episode right now, can't you tell? Again, proven medical fact. Alcohol has shown evidence of being capable of slowing down a psychotic state. (I just finished peaking in the psychotic episode. Three years ago, I would have been screaming obscenities. I just wanted to make a note of this) It kind of comes in waves. Usually I can still type, but that time, I had to stop for a few minutes to do therapy. That's pretty normal.
The therapy involves, if you haven't figured it out, smoking weed and drinking Vodka. I've been doing the therapy for about 2 and a half years. My family, mom, grandmother, and older brother especially, have noticed a massive improvement in my behavior. I had a "Bad psychotic day" today. Three years ago, a bad psychotic day would have likely gotten the police called. This has happened to me on more than one occasion. Today, it was more or less under control. A bad psychotic day now is about equal to what a good psychotic day was, three years ago. Almost equal, still a little worse, but not really bad.
Man made anti-psychotics, anti-depressants, mood stabilizers, etc. Where did that get me? God made marijuana and alcohol. (Animals often get intoxicated by eating over-ripe fruit, as it ferments inside its own skin) I've had better progress with the therapy than I ever did with anything else. My doctor calls it a justification to get drunk and high, but even she has marked some improvements. She still thinks I'm full of shit, but she has noticed and documented that I claim to feel a lot better. She's into Yoga, I really thought she might take more interest in what I'm doing. I feel a lot better. Even a friend of mine that mostly only talks to me on the phone noticed that I seem better. He's a paramedic that transports mental patients. Oh yeah, almost forgot, nicotine is a natural anti-psychotic as well. That's why people tend to spazz out when they quit. They don't have the anti-psychotic anymore. In other words, smoking, drinking, and getting high is actually helping my mental illness. It's all God-made materials. How's that for irony?????????
As to improving over time, I've noticed that I've improved with my level of anger dropping over time. I have faith that everyone can improve with help from God, and with effort over time in relation to their mental problems and character flaws.
Also, I reccomend you vist M. Simon's blog 'Power and Control'. He's like the Johnny Appleseed of the Internet, or was (I haven't seen him do it in a few months). He's always dropping little tidbits about self-medication into comments sections on blogs.
What you are talking about is exactly what he covers in quite a bit of detail. He has access to a number of scientific studies on the issue, and he is a strong proponent of legalizing marijuana from a position of Christian charity. As in, its the Christian's duty to comfort the afflicted or pain-ridden.
I exchanged some email with him a year or so ago, and I have to admit, he made me waver a bit in my views.
SMILE: I've been looking at cultural variances (small) for Multiverser. One obvious variance is legal marijuana.
Eric, what's the web address on that blog you cited?
One really nice thing about the therapy. I can MOST CERTAINLY live with the side effects!!!!!!!
If marajuana causes a psychotic state - why would it be useful as therapy against psychosis?
Because if I combine that with the Vodka, its puts me into a controlled psychotic state.In that state, I do therapy. The therapy involves a lot of prayer, saying mantras, a lot of mental exercise. Stretching the brain muscles. I'm teaching myself to control the psychosis. Have you ever heard of Stress Learning? It's something they do to cops and to doctors. Try to put them under stress during practice, so that when they really have to shoot or operate, and are really under stress, they remember how. By deliberately putting myself into a controlled psychotic state, and controlling it then, when the psychosis comes out naturally, I'm better able to deal with it.
And to answer your next question, no, I have no idea why I posted this here. It was just one of those "Seemed like the right thing to do at the time" kind of things.