Deja Vu, the feeling that you've done something before. Is there any kind of after the fact feeling that something was supposed to happen that way? I keep thinking about things that have happened to me. Despite all of the errors and mistakes that I made during these times, it feels like it should have gone that way. Like it was predestined from the start, and nothing I could do could have possibly changed it. It's just a feeling that my life was "supposed" to happen this way. Anybody ever get a feeling like that? Anybody have any idea what it would be called?
I think they call it destiny, but I'm not certain.
--M. J. Young
Something else along these lines. That my life was "supposed" to happen the way it did. The source of my absolute worst psychotic fit is also probably 75% of the reason why I made a life-altering decision my Junior year of high school. I don't want to go into too much detail, but it turned out that this life-altering decision was one of the best decisions I ever made in my life. It forever changed who I am as a person. The life-altering decision likely would not have been made had I not caused the psychotic episode.
I remember that for weeks prior to doing this thing which caused the psychotic episode, I had it repeating in my head that I should do it. It would not get out of my head that I should do it. Doing it has caused me unimaginable pain from the psychosis it caused, but ultimately, it had a positive result. Now, I am learning to control the psychosis, and God has revealed things to me that I never knew before. It's almost like it was "supposed" to happen that way. Like I was setting the entire rest of my life up, under God's direction, 15 years before I could have realized it. This probably doesn't make much sense to anyone. I'm not sure it makes any sense to me actually. The point is that if you're looking at your life and saying "This is not the way this is supposed to happen" think again. God may have different plans for it.